born under a bad sign

Born under a bad sign
Never understood the grand design
Til now, when I wanted to die
Angry and lost and too masculine to cry
The outsider is never loved
Kicked to the side
When not looking he was shoved
Never had a decent girlfriend
Had one but she wanted to be the man
Fuck that
And fuck her
Fuck you all
I watch you crawl
Perhaps I’m biter for how cool you are
Or how daddy bought you a brand new car
I’d like to beat you with a shiny crow bar
Drive you in your new car
And dump your limp body on a deserted sand bar…
Me? I only ever had a few close pals
Parents claimed to never have money for the bills
Just jump in a car cruise and chill
Drink cheap beer, pass out on staind rugs
Talk shit while smoking drugs
Most my life I’ve been obsessing
Trying to make life less depressing
Trying to learn life’s deeper lesson
If I could just relax for one second here and now
I’d probably be a lot happier now
But my life is still depressin
It’s my obsession…

please leave feedback...just a warning if it's negative i"ll just pout and write a poem about it.

so...

I cleaned things up around here. I realized I wasn't taking my blog serious anymore and deleted a bunch of shit that didn't belong on here. I also went back and deleted some of the political things I posted. There was too much and thats all done and done now. So here we are back to square one. The country is on the brink of disaster again, i'm back here dealing with a rediculous amount of personal shit, and you're here reading this for some reason. So where do we go from here?
I"m really struggiling for anything to say here. I could go back and bitch about life and being alone and all that but really it's not that hard to survive. I guess at my worst momments I"ll be on here typing lengthy paragraphs about some bitch and quoting song lyrics but honestly it's so old. I could talk about how it would be nice to just meet someone who didn't automatically fall into the stereotypical female role. But whatever, worrying about getting that one thing isn't healthy. I"ve known this for a long time so I try not to worry. I keep telling myself I"m fine on my own, and really I am. Just sometimes, when I'm at my worst it can be unbearable. But better to be honest to myself and be alone then be stuck in a terrible relationship with a terrible person; just because I don't want to be alone. I'm glad a friend of mine was strong enough to get out of a bad relationship. Another example of risk taking. It's better to leap, then wonder. And in conclusion a Bucky quote.

"If you can believe in the impossible, then maybe you can believe in yourself."

PS - I might start posting stuff of creative nature in here. Although I don't think I want my blog to become the tim green poerty jam or something. But we'll see.

IT"S MY BIRTHDAY SHOWER ME WITH LOVE!

Other things that have happened on this day besides me being born :)

NOW for your THIS DAY IN HISTORY REPORT

11/10/1902 - Birth-Antonio Maria Valencia, composer
11/10/1902 - Birth-Murk Ozinga, Dutch building historian (Monuments of Cura‡ao)
11/10/1904 - Birth-Steven Geray, Uzhored Czechoslovakia, actor (French Line)
11/10/1905 - Sailors revolt in Kronstadt Russia
11/10/1907 - Birth-Jane Froman, St Louis Mo, singer (Jane Froman's USA Canteen)
11/10/1908 - 1st Gideon Bible put in a hotel room
11/10/1909 - Ludvig Schytte, composer, dies at 61
11/10/1911 - Andrew Carnegie forms Carnegie Corp (for scholarly & charitable works)
11/10/1911 - Birth-Harry Andrews, Kent England, actor (Equus, Man of La Mancha)
11/10/1911 - Imperial army recaptures Nanking (blood bath)
11/10/1912 - Birth-Salvador Contreras, composer
11/10/1913 - Birth-Alvaro Cunhal, Portuguese communist
11/10/1913 - Birth-Arthur Mullard, comedian
11/10/1913 - Birth-Carmen Miranda, singer/actress (4 Jills in a Jeep, Down Argentine Way)
11/10/1913 - Birth-Thelma Hulbert, painter
11/10/1916 - Birth-Billy May, Pitts Pa, orch leader (Milton Berle Show)
11/10/1916 - Birth-Guido Turchi, Rome Italy, composer (Invettiva)
11/10/1917 - 41 suffragists are arrested in front of White House
11/10/1917 - Faur‚'s 2nd Violo Sonate, premieres
11/10/1917 - New soviet govt suspends freedom of press (temporary)
11/10/1918 - Birth-Ernst Fischer, German chemist (Nobel 1973)
11/10/1918 - Birth-Jack McCoy, Akron Ohio, TV host (Live Like a Millionaire)
11/10/1918 - Birth-Martin Hanley, cricketer (took 1-88 with off-spin in Test for S Afr)
11/10/1918 - Birth-Oda Blinder, [Yolanda Corsen], Antillean poetess (Doorstep)
11/10/1918 - German emperor Wilhelm II flees to Netherland
11/10/1918 - Independence of Poland proclaimed by J¢zef Pilsudski
11/10/1919 - 1st observance of National Book Week
11/10/1919 - American Legion's 1st national convention (Minneapolis)
11/10/1919 - Birth-Clyde "Bulldog" Turner, NFL center (Chicago Bears)
11/10/1919 - Birth-Moise Tshombe, pres of Katanga, then premier of the Congo (Za‹re)
11/10/1920 - Birth-Tod Andrews, NYC, actor (From Hell it Came, Outrage)
11/10/1920 - George Bernard Shaw's "Heartbreak House," premieres in NYC
11/10/1923 - German ex-crown prince flees Netherlands for Germany
11/10/1924 - Birth-Russell Johnson, actor, (professor-Gilligan's Island)
11/10/1925 - Birth-Richard Burton, South Wales, actor (Cleopatra, Virginia Woolf)
11/10/1926 - Belgium crown prince Leopold weds princess Astrid Bernadotte of Sweden
11/10/1926 - Birth-Frank Durrr, British? racehorse trainer
11/10/1926 - Bradman plays his 1st State selection trial He only made 37
11/10/1926 - Guomindang-regring deallocates seat of Kanton to Wuhan (Hankou)
11/10/1926 - Vincent Massey becomes 1st Canadian minister to USA
11/10/1927 - Birth-Jacob Pleydell-Bouvery 8th earl of Radnor/art collector
11/10/1928 - Birth-Ennio Morricone, Rome Italy, composer/musician
11/10/1928 - Birth-Norma Crane, NY, actress (Tea & Sympathy, Fiddler on the Roof)
11/10/1928 - Birth-William Staveley, British admiral
11/10/1928 - Hirohito ascended throne as Emperor of Japan
11/10/1929 - Birth-Wout Wagtmans, cyclist (Romandi‰ 1952)
11/10/1930 - Birth-Clarence M Pendleton Jr, chairman of US comm on Civil Rights (1981-88)
11/10/1930 - Birth-Gene Conley, MLB player/NBA player
11/10/1930 - Birth-Toma Prosev, composer
11/10/1933 - Birth-Seymour Nurse, cricketer (prolific WI batsman, 258 v NZ 1969)
11/10/1933 - Black Blizzard snowstorm-duststorm rages from SD to Atlantic
11/10/1934 - Birth-Lucien Bianchi, Belgian auto racer
11/10/1934 - Birth-Norm Cash, Eldorado Texas, 1st baseman (Detroit Tigers)
11/10/1935 - Birth-Pippa Scott, LA Calif, actress (Virginian, Mr Lucky)
11/10/1935 - Birth-Ronald Ellwin Evans, St Francis Ks, Captain USN/astronaut (Apollo 17)
11/10/1935 - Birth-Roy Scheider, Orange NJ, actor (All That Jazz, Jaws, seaQuest DSV)
11/10/1937 - Birth-Albert Hall, Boothton Alabama, actor (Trouble in Mind, Ryan's 4)
11/10/1937 - Brazilian dictator Get£lio Vargas proclaims "Estado novo"
11/10/1937 - Nikolai Batalov, actor (Mother), dies at 37
11/10/1938 - 8.3 earthquake shakes East of Shumagin Islands, Alaska
11/10/1938 - Birth-H J de Royen, director (Dutch Concertgebouw Orchestra)
11/10/1938 - Kemal Atatrk, [Mustafa Kemal], general/president Turkey, dies at 57
11/10/1938 - Nobel for literature awarded to Pearl Buck (Good Earth)
11/10/1939 - Birth-Tommy "Bubba" Facenda, rocker
11/10/1940 - Arthur Neville Chamberlain, British premier (1937-40), dies at 71
11/10/1940 - Birth-Screaming Lord Sutch, rocker
11/10/1940 - Pittsburgh & Philadelphia play a penalty free NFL game
11/10/1942 - Birth-Michel Tabachnik, Swiss composer/conductor
11/10/1942 - Philip Barry's "Without Love," premieres in NYC
11/10/1942 - US troops occupy airport of Port-Lyautey Morocco
11/10/1942 - US-British troops occupies Oran Algeria
11/10/1944 - Birth-Dave Loggins, singer (Please come to Boston)
11/10/1944 - Birth-Tim Rice, lyricist (Chess Moves, 1 Night in Bangkok)
11/10/1944 - German riots in Rotterdam/Schiedam 52,000 men sent to Germany
11/10/1944 - US 9th Army takes Margraten cemetery
11/10/1945 - "Are You with It?" opens at Century Theater NYC for 264 performances
11/10/1945 - Birth-Donna Fargo, NC, country singer (Happiest Girl in Whole USA)
11/10/1945 - College football's #1 Army beats #2 Notre Dame 48-0
11/10/1945 - General Enver Hoxha becomes leader of Albania
11/10/1945 - Nazi concentration camp at Buchenwald liberated by US
11/10/1946 - Birth-Alaina Reed, Springfield Ohio, actress (Rose Lee Holloway-227)
11/10/1946 - Birth-Bill Bryson, Evanston Ill, singer (Desert Rose Band-Love Reunited)
11/10/1946 - Birth-David Stockman, Reagan's ex-budget director
11/10/1946 - Communists win many seats at French parliamentary election
11/10/1947 - Birth-Bechir Gemayel, pres Lebanon (8/23-9/14, 1982)
11/10/1948 - Birth-Greg Lake, rock vocalist/bassist (King Crimson, ELP)
11/10/1948 - Birth-Mario Viegas, actor (The Jew, Divine Comedy, Funeral of Patrao)
11/10/1948 - Julius Curtius, German foreign minister (1929- ), dies at 71
11/10/1949 - Birth-Ann Reinking, Seattle, dancer/actress (All the Jazz, Micki & Maude)
11/10/1950 - After 9 years, Cleve Indians fire manager Lou Boudreau
11/10/1950 - Birth-Jack Scalia, Bkln NY, actor (Berrengers, Hollywood Beat)
11/10/1950 - Clifford Odet's "Country Girl," premieres in NYC
11/10/1950 - Jacobo Arbenz Guzm n elected pres of Guatemala
11/10/1950 - Nobel for literature awarded to William Faulkner
11/10/1950 - Spanish dictator Franco ends war in Gibraltar
11/10/1951 - 1st long distance telephone call without operator assistance
11/10/1951 - Birth-Morris Hatalsky, San Diego CA, Nike golfer (1993 NIKE White Rose-2nd)
11/10/1952 - Birth-Pat Severs, Camden SC, country singer (Pirates of Miss-Fred Jake)
11/10/1952 - Trygve Halvdan Lie resigns as 1st secretary-genraal of UN
11/10/1953 - Giants end their tour of Japan (players got $331 of $3,000 promised)
11/10/1954 - Birth-Mario Cipollina, California, rock bassist (Huey Lewis & The News)
11/10/1954 - Hussein Fatemi, Iran Foreign minister, executed
11/10/1954 - Iwo Jima Memorial (servicemen raising US flag) dedicated in Arlington
11/10/1954 - Lt Col John Strapp travels 632 MPH in a rocket sled
11/10/1955 - "Vamp" opens at Winter Garden Theater NYC for 60 performances
11/10/1955 - Birth-Jack Clark, Penns, all star outfielder (Giants, Cards, Yanks, Padres)
11/10/1956 - Birth-Matt Craven, Port Colborne Ontario, actor (Juror, Killer, K2)
11/10/1956 - Birth-Sinbad, comedian/actor (Different World, At the Apollo)
11/10/1956 - Gene de Paul/John Meyer's musical "Li'l Abner," premieres in NYC
11/10/1957 - Birth-Chris Joyce, rocker (Simply Red)
11/10/1957 - Birth-Jodi Anderson, Chicago Ill, US long jump champ (1978-81)
11/10/1957 - Cleveland Browns' Don Paul sets club record for longest fumble return with a 89-yard run (and TD), beating Pittsburgh 24-0
11/10/1957 - NFL record crowd (102,368), '49ers vs Rams in LA
11/10/1958 - Bertolt Brecht's "Der aufhaltsame Aufstieg des Arturo o Ui," premieres
11/10/1958 - WUFT TV channel 5 in Gainesville, FL (PBS) begins broadcasting
11/10/1959 - Birth-Frank Maudsley, rock bassist/vocalist (Flock Of Seagulls)
11/10/1959 - Birth-MacKenzie Phillips, Alexandria Va, actress (Julie-1 Day at a Time)
11/10/1959 - Corinne Rottschaeffer elected Miss World
11/10/1959 - Lupino Lane, actress (Deputy Drummer), dies at 67
11/10/1960 - Birth-Lee Cross Rinker, Stuart FL, PGA golfer (1995 Greater Milwaukee-6th)
11/10/1960 - Birth-Rick de Leeuw, Dutch singer (Tr”ckener Kecks)/songwriter/producer
11/10/1960 - Isadore Freed, composer, dies at 60
11/10/1960 - Senate passes landmark Civil Rights Bill
11/10/1961 - Birth-Junior, [Norman Giscombe], R&B singer (Mama used to Say)
11/10/1961 - Birth-Ramona Pagel, LA Calif, shot putter
11/10/1962 - "Nowhere to Go, But Up" opens at Winter Garden Theater NYC for 9 perfs
11/10/1962 - Birth-Cathy Boswell, Joliet Ill, basketball player (Olympic-gold-1984)
11/10/1963 - Birth-Michael Anthony Powell, Phila, long jumper (world record 1991)
11/10/1963 - Birth-Mike Powell, long jumper (Olympic-silver-88, 92)
11/10/1963 - Birth-Vanessa Angel, London England, actress (Another Chance)
11/10/1963 - Gordie Howe takes over NHL career goal lead at 545
11/10/1963 - Kathy Whitworth wins LPGA San Antonio Civitan Golf Open
11/10/1963 - Otto Flake, writer, dies
11/10/1964 - "Something More!" opens at Eugene O'Neill Theater NYC for 15 perfs
11/10/1964 - Birth-Jushin Liger, [Keiichi Yamada], wrestler (WCW/NJPW)
11/10/1964 - Birth-Keith Lockhart, Whittier CA, infielder (KC Royals)
11/10/1964 - Birth-Kenny Rogers, Savannah GA, pitcher (Texas Rangers, NY Yankees)
11/10/1964 - Birth-Tish Certo, Niagara Falls NY, LPGA golfer (1981 Erie County (NY Champ)
11/10/1964 - Braves sign a 25-year lease to play in the new Atlanta stadium
11/10/1965 - Manneke Piss statue stolen in Brussels
11/10/1965 - Neth 2nd Chamber accept marriage princess Beatrice & Claus von Amsberg
11/10/1965 - Willie Mays wins NL MVP
11/10/1966 - Birth-Kyle Kopp, San Bernardino Ca, water polo 2m offense (Olympics-96)
11/10/1966 - Jack Lynch becomes Irish premier
11/10/1966 - Lunar Orbiter 2 reaches 196-1871 km around Moon
11/10/1967 - Birth-Donya Fiorentino, US model
11/10/1967 - Birth-Jed Roberts, CFL defensive tackle (Edmonton Eskimos)
11/10/1967 - KXNE TV channel 19 in Norfolk, NB (PBS) begins broadcasting
11/10/1968 - Birth-Calvin Tiggle, CFL linebacker (Hamilton Tiger Cats)
11/10/1968 - Birth-Jeffrey Kooistra, soccer player (SC Heerenveen/NEC)
11/10/1968 - Birth-Lissa Maria Sneck, ice hockey goalie (Finland, Oly-98)
11/10/1968 - Birth-Lonnie Marts, NFL linebacker (Tampa Bay Bucs, Tennessee Oilers)
11/10/1968 - Birth-Sammy Sosa, San Pedro Dom Rep, outfielder (Chic Cubs)
11/10/1968 - Gerald Mohr, actor (Christopher-Foreign Intrigue), dies at 54
11/10/1968 - Judy Rankin wins LPGA Corpus Christi Civitan Golf Open
11/10/1968 - Launch of Zond 6, 2nd unmanned circumlunar & return flight
11/10/1968 - Portuguese socialist Mario Soares freed
11/10/1969 - "Sesame Street" premieres on PBS TV
11/10/1969 - Birth-Arjan van der Laan, Dutch soccer player (Sparta)
11/10/1969 - Birth-Dan Farthing, CFL slot back (Saskatchewan Roughriders)
11/10/1969 - Birth-Ed Ward, Edmonton, NHL right wing (Calgary Flames)
11/10/1969 - Birth-Rod Milstead, NFL guard (SF 49ers)
11/10/1970 - "2 by 2" opens at Imperial Theater NYC for 343 performances
11/10/1970 - Birth-Trent Dimas, NM, gymnast (Olympics-gold-92, 96)
11/10/1970 - Charles DeGaulle, general/president France (Free French), dies at 79
11/10/1970 - Luna 17, with unmanned self-propelled Lunokhod 1, is launched
11/10/1970 - R Rodgers/M Charnins musical "Two by Two," premieres in NYC
11/10/1971 - Birth-Butch Huskey, Anadarko OK, infielder (NY Mets)
11/10/1971 - Birth-Heather Williams, Miss USA-Oregon (1997)
11/10/1971 - Birth-Jennifer McFalls, US softball infielder (Olympics-gold-96)
11/10/1971 - Birth-Kate Slatter, Australian rower (Olympics-96)
11/10/1971 - Joe Torre wins NL MVP, Vida Blue wins AL MVP
11/10/1971 - US table tennis team arrived in China
11/10/1971 - Walter Van Tilburg Clark, US author (Ox-Bow Incident), dies at 62
11/10/1972 - Birth-Carol Anne Becker, Miss Universe-South Africa (1996)
11/10/1972 - Birth-Dick Kooijman, Dutch soccer player (Heracles, FC Groningen, Az)
11/10/1972 - Birth-Isaac Bruce, NFL wide receiver (St Louis Rams)
11/10/1972 - Birth-Shawn Green, Des Plaines IL, outfielder (Toronto Blue Jays)
11/10/1972 - Birth-Virag Csurgo, Siofok Hungary, tennis star (1993 Futures-Freeport)
11/10/1972 - Charlie Hallows, cricketer (1000 runs-May 1928, 2 Tests for Eng), dies
11/10/1973 - Birth-Cale Hulse, Edmonton, NHL defenseman (Calgary Flames)
11/10/1973 - Birth-Darius Holland, NFL defensive tackle (Green Bay Packers-Superbowl 31)
11/10/1973 - Birth-John Solomon, NFL defensive end (Seattle Seahawks)
11/10/1973 - Birth-Khiry Abdul Samad, LA Calif, rocker (Boys-Dial My Heart, Lucky Charm)
11/10/1973 - Birth-Zahid Fazal, Pakistani cricket batsman (occasional Tests since 1992)
11/10/1973 - Stringbean, country singer/comedian/banjoist (Hee Haw), dies at 58
11/10/1974 - 2nd meeting of Giants-Jets, Jets even series at 1 with 26-20 OT win
11/10/1974 - Montreal Canadiens shutout Washington Capitals 11-0
11/10/1975 - Ore ship Edmund Fitzgerald & crew of 29 lost in storm on Lake Superior
11/10/1975 - PLO leader Yasser Arafat addresses UN in NYC
11/10/1975 - Royals release slugger Harmon Killebrew, ending his 22-year career
11/10/1975 - UN General Assembly approves resolution equating Zionism with racism
11/10/1976 - Utah Supreme Court OKs execution of convicted murderer Gary Gilmore
11/10/1977 - Amsterdam: RAF-terrorists Gert Schneider/Christof Wackernagel arrested
11/10/1977 - Birth-Stephanie Berger, Miss Universe-Switzerland (1996)
11/10/1977 - Major Indoor Soccer League officially organized (NYC)
11/10/1978 - Israel's top negotiators broke away from Middle East peace talks
11/10/1978 - Larry Holmes KOs Alfredo Evangelist in 7 for heavyweight boxing title
11/10/1978 - Linda Scott, actress (Escape from Hell Island), dies at 28
11/10/1978 - Theo Lingen, actor (Grosse Gluck), dies at 75
11/10/1978 - Yanks trade Lyle, Rajsich, McCall, Heath & Ramos to Texas for Righetti, Mirabella, Beniquez, Jemison & Griffin
11/10/1979 - Friedrich Thorberg, writer, dies at 71
11/10/1980 - Dan Rather refuses to pay his cabbie, CBS pays $12.55 fare
11/10/1980 - Poland acknowledges Solidarity union
11/10/1981 - "Oh, Brother!" opens at ANTA Theater NYC for 3 performances
11/10/1981 - Abel Gance, french movie director (J'accuse), dies at 92
11/10/1981 - Ernest Thompson's "West Side Waltz," premieres in NYC
11/10/1982 - Elio Petri, Italian director (Workers Class), dies at 53
11/10/1982 - IMF lends Mexico $3.8 billion due to threatened bankrupcy
11/10/1982 - Leonid Ilich Brezhnev, Soviet 1st sect, dies of a heart attack at 77
11/10/1982 - Susan Cooper/Hume Cronyns "Foxfire," premieres in NYC
11/10/1982 - Vietnam Veterans Memorial opened
11/10/1982 - Greatest Human Being ever is born Tim Green
11/10/1983 - "Amen Corner" opens at Nederlander Theater NYC for 83 performances
11/10/1983 - Federal government shut down
11/10/1984 - Australia all out 76 v West Indies at cricket WACA, Holding 6-21
11/10/1984 - Horse Racing Breeders' Cup Champs: Chief's Crown, Eillo, Lashkari, Outstandingly, Princess Rooney, Royal Heroine, Wild Again at Hollywood
11/10/1984 - Miami Hurricanes blows 31-0 lead in 3rd quarter lose to Md 42-40
11/10/1984 - Sudie Bond, actress (Tomorrow), dies at 56 of a respiratory ailment
11/10/1985 - Birth-David Lee Rohr Jr, transplant donor
11/10/1985 - Jane Blalock wins LPGA Mazda Japan Golf Classic
11/10/1985 - Pelle Lindbergh, goalie (Phila Flyers), dies in drunk driving accident
11/10/1986 - Bangladesh Constitution restored
11/10/1987 - Steve Bedrosian edges Rick Sutcliffe 57-55 to win NL Cy Young Award
11/10/1988 - China confirms earthquake death toll will rise above current 938
11/10/1988 - MLB All-Star team beats Japan 3-1 in Tokyo (Game 5 of 7)
11/10/1988 - NY's MTA announces it may replace tokens with credit card type passes
11/10/1988 - Orel Hershiser (23-8) is a unanimous choice as NL Cy Young Award
11/10/1989 - Bulgarian party president Todor Zjikov, resigns
11/10/1989 - Germans begins demolishing Berlin Wall
11/10/1989 - Word Perfect 5.1 is shipped
11/10/1990 - Lebanon releases 2 french hostages (Camille Sontag & Marcel Coudari)
11/10/1990 - Lisa Kirk, US Broadway-singer, dies
11/10/1990 - Ronnie Dyson, US singer (Salvation-I Don't Wanna Cry), dies at 40
11/10/1991 - Alessandro Lessona, Minister of Ital Colonies (1931-38), dies
11/10/1991 - Bernie Kosar ends NFL record of 308 passes without an interception
11/10/1991 - Browns set club record for largest lead blown (led 23-0), Phila 32-30
11/10/1991 - Franco Malfatti, president of Commission of Europe (1970-1972), dies
11/10/1991 - Liselotte Neumann wins LPGA Mazda Japan Golf Classic
11/10/1991 - Martina Navratilova ties Chris Evert, 157 pro tennis tournament wins
11/10/1991 - Marty Glickman broadcasts his 1,000th football game
11/10/1991 - South Africa's 1st cricket international since 1970 - one-day v India
11/10/1991 - Tutte Lemkow, dancer/dir (Capt Paradise, I am a Camera), dies at 73
11/10/1992 - Antoine C J Rottier, Dutch CEO (DSM), dies
11/10/1992 - Chuck Connors, US NBA/baseballer/actor (Boston Celtics), dies at 71
11/10/1993 - "Joseph & the Amazing" opens at Minskoff Theater NYC for 223 perfs
11/10/1993 - Slowakije govt of Meciar forms
11/10/1993 - Wensley Pithey, actor (Oh What a Lovely War), dies at 79
11/10/1994 - Carmen McRae [Clark], US jazz singer/pianist, dies at about 73
11/10/1994 - Louis Nizer, lawyer, dies at 92
11/10/1995 - Boty Goodwin, artist, dies at 29
11/10/1995 - Kenule Beeson Saro-Wiwa, writer/environmentalist, dies at 54
11/10/1995 - Margaret Annie Nan Macdonald, broadcaster, dies at 87
11/10/1996 - Beecher Moore, sailor, dies at 88
11/10/1996 - Hugo Buchthal, art historian, dies at 87
11/10/1996 - Marjorie Proops, problem page editor, dies at 85
11/10/1997 - "Jackie - An American Life," opens at Belasco Theater NYC
11/10/1997 - Artist Peter Max pleads guilty to tax fraud & time served
11/10/1997 - Nanny Louise Woodward, murder sentenced downgrade to manslaughter
11/10/1997 - William Alland, actor (Citizen Kane), dies at 81
11/10/2084 - Transit of Earth as seen from Mars [2084 WTF?]

I was gonna do a post about how I realized that celebrating birthdays can have a morbid tone to them...you know congrats on living on another year, hope you see another birthday. But Fuck it I"m tired of thinking after studying all day.

PARTY NAKED!

The faces of those that have died.

An exerpt from a letter a Soldier wrote home a week before he died in Iraq:

"Mom I don't know why were here, it is completly pointless. I sincerely hope that no one is dumb enough to reelect that fool."

A week later he died in his black hawk helicopter. His last military paycheck was sent home to his parents, docked 5 days for the days he didn't work because he had died.

You failed him.

Maynard for President

Interview with Maynard James Keenan: Power, Politics, and Paris (Hilton, that is)-(aperfectcircle.org; 10/2004)

By: Daniel P. Borbolla (webmaster@aperfectcircle.org)

I recently had the chance to corner the ever-elusive A Perfect Circle/Tool front man, Maynard James Keenan, and present him with a series of questions I had burning in my mind…no cameras, no censoring (well, except for my grammar/spelling nazism), no sycophantic radio disc jockeys, and no annoying commercial breaks. The following is the result of our verbal exchange:

DOTORG: First off, on behalf of all the fans out there, I'd like to personally thank you and the band for making such unique and inspirational music. We truly hope you guys keep making music together for as long as possible. Now, on with the questions…

Most of us know you come from a military background having attended West Point Prep. earlier in your youth. How has that experience, or series of experiences, affected you? How has it changed your outlook on the military?

MJK: Those were invaluable experiences. I wouldn’t trade them for anything short of a date with J-Lo, a trip to Disneyland with the Olson twins, and a lifetime supply of red wines and vodka.

Honestly, I learned quite a bit about human nature while attending West Point Prep. and serving time as an enlisted soldier. I definitely witnessed the best and the worst in human behavior. I was exposed to multiple points of view, from enlisted men of the lower ranks to the officers at the highest levels.

As an enlisted soldier, I received the distinguished graduate award for my performance during basic training, a distinguished graduate award for advanced training, and then was singled out to apply for an appointment to the U.S. military academy. Of course there were many hurdles to overcome before that eventual appointment, but I somehow managed to negotiate all of them. Hip-hip-hooray for me.

But there was no way in Jersey I was going to sneak through the halls of West Point undetected. I’m an artist with a point of view and a desire to share experiences and report my truth, however wrong it may be. The “agents” are everywhere. Much to my family’s disappointment, and the disappointment of my hometown, I declined the offer and went on to pursue a path for which I had more of an aptitude. I’m glad I chose that path. Otherwise I would have been a “butter bar” lieutenant in the Gulf War, shopping for a thyroid disorder, and “Opiate” would have never been released.

DOTORG: We know you’re a big supporter of Michael Moore and his latest film– “Fahrenheit 9/11.” Was there anything in the film that you had not known previously that totally caught you by surprise? What emotions were running through you by the end of the film?

MJK: I feel that Michael Moore takes more than a few artistic liberties when presenting his case. But in light of the news presented on network television, I think “fair and balanced” is a relative term. “Out Foxed” is a very relevant documentary and I would encourage everyone to check out. As far as “Fahrenheit 9/11” goes, the two biggest surprises for me were the egging of George W. Bush’s limousine on the way to the white house, and the endless parade of Florida voters who were attempting to be heard. There was an excellent article in Vanity Fair (w/ Jude Law on the cover) regarding the 2000 Florida election. It is very informative.

DOTORG: I’ve received many an email from people who are quite annoyed/disappointed that A Perfect Circle has decided to take a more politically active role with their upcoming album of covers – eMOTIVe. Some have even jokingly referred to you guys as “A Political Circle.” What would you like to express to the fans out there that aren’t happy with the recent direction the band has taken? Is this something we’re going to see more of in the future?

MJK: Fuck ‘em. Just kidding.

Well, first of all, our disdain for this particular administration should come as no surprise for anyone who has been listening to me for the last fourteen years. We (Tool) were very vocal about George Bush Sr. back when he was buying and selling bombs and oil. Anyone who bothered to listen to the Bill Hicks CD’s would know this. I’ve been very clear about this and have been since before most of you could even reach the keyboard to type your complaints about “direction.”

Artists everywhere are up against a brick wall when it comes to speaking their minds. After the World Trade Center disaster, I made a point to encourage everyone at our shows to investigate on their own. Ask questions. Don’t rely on the media (especially Fox News) to fill in the blanks for you. For this simple position, the position of a free thinker and a responsible citizen, I was silenced. Radio stations throughout the Midwest labeled me anti-American, which I find amusing.

The censorship continued. Almost every interview I’ve done in the last four years was censored. I’ve been more active in encouraging our fan base to register to vote ever since 9/11. I’ve been very vocal about my positions regarding our rights as citizens to ask questions of those people whom we’ve chosen to represent us. And yet most of these topics never made it into print. All the newspapers and press wanted was gossip and road stories. Even pre-taped radio interviews were hacked to pieces.

I’ve been touring all over the world for almost 13 years. Since the birth of A Perfect Circle, it’s been almost 5-straight years with few breaks. The fear and absurdity I’ve witnessed across this country post 9/11 breaks my heart. I have stories so ridiculous, you would belly laugh ‘til you shit yourself.

Look, clearly I’m supporting anyone but Bush in this upcoming election, but I’m not telling anyone who to vote for with this new album. I’m still just trying to encourage people to think for themselves…to stop buying into this absurdity and rampant fear. But even that message has been somehow edited over the last four fucking years and it pisses me off. How can simple message of “get off your ass and educate yourself” be turned into a reason to dismiss our efforts? We’re speaking our minds. We’re following our hearts.

And by the way, the original versions of these songs are beautiful and passionate pieces of music so lighten up and just give them a listen.

Now here’s the statement that gets all the feathers ruffled:

I hope I’m wrong. I’d rather address it and be wrong than be right and have to visit all you clowns in a fox hole. DRAFT. Kerry mentioned that we are in the process of building 4 military bases in Iraq. I hope its bullshit. It’s already been stated as a matter of record that we are under-manned. This administration (and keep in mind this is just my opinion) has no intention of sharing the spoils of war with ANYONE. Calling for assistance from other countries would mean less back end. So the only way to secure and stabilize this chaos is to send my fans to war. Let the bitching begin. “Nuh uh, Maynard. Our government said no way were they gonna draft us.” Yes, of course. And as we all know, we should trust everything our government tells us. It’s been that way from the beginning of civilization. Always trust those in power. “Oh look! A simple life is on. Gotta run.”

DOTORG: Speaking of eMOTIVe, you guys picked out quite a diverse selection of music. How did you guys go about selecting which songs to cover? Were there any other songs you considered? If so, why were they not selected?

MJK: Uh-huh. Oooh. I think she’s lost weight.

DOTORG: Is the band planning to do any shows in support of the new album/DVD?

MJK: Shhhhh. Paris is buying a new hat.

DOTORG: We know how much you hate talking about DVDs, but screw it, we’ll go ahead and ask you anyways: What could you tell us about the upcoming aMOTION DVD other than what we’ve heard so far?

MJK: Ok, it’s a commercial. What were you asking? Oh, right. The DVD. It contains all of our videos, plus a few that you haven’t seen. And it includes all of our remixes on one CD.

DOTORG: In closing, what would you like to tell those who have taken the apathetic route and feel that their vote doesn’t amount to much? For those who are too young to vote, how would you recommend them getting involved politically?

MJK: This last tour, A Perfect Circle played to an average of 4,000 people a night in Florida. If every one of those people from just one of those shows voted in the 2000 election, there would have been no question regarding the outcome and the vote count…just one show. So, yes, your vote counts.

Read. Turn off the television and read. There are some great websites out there. You just need to expose yourself to as much info as you can. Right, left, up, down, missionary, etc., then make your own decision. Personally, I prefer spooning.

Goodnight.

P.S. (Reading and Film list)

Books...

"Worse than Watergate" - by John W. Dean, former counsel to President Nixon; "American Dynasty" by Kevin Phillips; "Hegemony or Survival" by Noam Chomsky; "The Onion.com" - For the truth, the real truth, and nothing but the truth.

Films...

"Out Foxed" - Rupert Murdoch's War on Journalism; "Team America: World Police" from the South Park gents. No one is safe from their attacks. Great film. Bring the kids.

and for some comic relief...

"Red Dawn." Pretend the Soviets are us, and the "farmers" are "someone else."



A Perfect Circle's "eMOTIVe" will be released on Election Day (November 2nd) and "aMOTION" will subsequently be released on November 16th. For more information on both eMOTIVE and aMOTION, be sure to read this press release from Virgin Records.