so...

I cleaned things up around here. I realized I wasn't taking my blog serious anymore and deleted a bunch of shit that didn't belong on here. I also went back and deleted some of the political things I posted. There was too much and thats all done and done now. So here we are back to square one. The country is on the brink of disaster again, i'm back here dealing with a rediculous amount of personal shit, and you're here reading this for some reason. So where do we go from here?
I"m really struggiling for anything to say here. I could go back and bitch about life and being alone and all that but really it's not that hard to survive. I guess at my worst momments I"ll be on here typing lengthy paragraphs about some bitch and quoting song lyrics but honestly it's so old. I could talk about how it would be nice to just meet someone who didn't automatically fall into the stereotypical female role. But whatever, worrying about getting that one thing isn't healthy. I"ve known this for a long time so I try not to worry. I keep telling myself I"m fine on my own, and really I am. Just sometimes, when I'm at my worst it can be unbearable. But better to be honest to myself and be alone then be stuck in a terrible relationship with a terrible person; just because I don't want to be alone. I'm glad a friend of mine was strong enough to get out of a bad relationship. Another example of risk taking. It's better to leap, then wonder. And in conclusion a Bucky quote.

"If you can believe in the impossible, then maybe you can believe in yourself."

PS - I might start posting stuff of creative nature in here. Although I don't think I want my blog to become the tim green poerty jam or something. But we'll see.