so many dreams...
Do I feel unappreciated? Sometimes, but this is a give and take world; and alot of times we have to remind ourselves of how much we take along with what we give. Although I feel like I"m not given the chance to give all that I offer. So many have deemed me unworthy, not sufficient, yet they struggle in unhappy relationships. Perhaps it's my arrogance that makes me think that I would be more appreciative of their love. Or the fact that I feel like I am drowning in a sea of lonliness sometimes and would do anything to keep my head above water. God that last line was really emo...*vomits*.
Love is blind they say. How untrue can that be, our ideas on what love is has been crafted and molded by our mass media. Even before such things existed soceity played a huge part in what we found attractive. I doubt there was ever a time in our history when two people feel love in love for the content of their character rather than their tight abs. Or maybe I'm just so shallow I can't understand others who arn't. Me, shallow, I know life is not without it's Irony. But one must be honest to himself. I've been called a romantic by some past girls I've known. And I guess it's true. when I say I want to meet someone I don't mean date someone I mean fall in love. I feel like any relationship where I don't see myself with the person forever is a waste of time. Maybe thats too much preasure on a relationship but I think if it's gonna be there then it should be there rightaway.
I decided recently that I"m glad that I'm not sexy or attractive. I mean it sucks cuz obviously attractive people have a much more vibrant sex life and entertaining time. And they also don't have to feel awkward or inadaquit around women. But when your good looking people are only interested in you for one reason, they could careless about who you are as a person. I watch "beautiful" people fall in and out of relationships like their disposable. It's really pathetic, and I realize that now.
I'm trying to be much more selective now, yea me mr.lonely heart, being selective. I figure that I'm gonna make relationships count. If I just need ass then random hookups are fine, but I don't need to string some girl along for that. I'm constantly questioning everything I do, I wonder if I should just stop and go with the flow. Does everything happen for a reason?
Love is blind they say. How untrue can that be, our ideas on what love is has been crafted and molded by our mass media. Even before such things existed soceity played a huge part in what we found attractive. I doubt there was ever a time in our history when two people feel love in love for the content of their character rather than their tight abs. Or maybe I'm just so shallow I can't understand others who arn't. Me, shallow, I know life is not without it's Irony. But one must be honest to himself. I've been called a romantic by some past girls I've known. And I guess it's true. when I say I want to meet someone I don't mean date someone I mean fall in love. I feel like any relationship where I don't see myself with the person forever is a waste of time. Maybe thats too much preasure on a relationship but I think if it's gonna be there then it should be there rightaway.
I decided recently that I"m glad that I'm not sexy or attractive. I mean it sucks cuz obviously attractive people have a much more vibrant sex life and entertaining time. And they also don't have to feel awkward or inadaquit around women. But when your good looking people are only interested in you for one reason, they could careless about who you are as a person. I watch "beautiful" people fall in and out of relationships like their disposable. It's really pathetic, and I realize that now.
I'm trying to be much more selective now, yea me mr.lonely heart, being selective. I figure that I'm gonna make relationships count. If I just need ass then random hookups are fine, but I don't need to string some girl along for that. I'm constantly questioning everything I do, I wonder if I should just stop and go with the flow. Does everything happen for a reason?
posted by -tim- at 1:49 AM
1 Comments:
"Love is blind they say. How untrue can that be, our ideas on what love is has been crafted and molded by our mass media"
Both what is considered attractive and what is considered love is at least somewhat influenced by the media. Remember the conversation we had about emotional attractedness to guys is what makes me gay? And how you hadn't thought of that before? So much of our culture and media plays up the sex aspect of relationships without looking at the other components, like comfort with the person, vulnerability, affection style, personality compatibility, etc. Personally, I find the whole idea of loving someone forever as somewhat impossible. Putting that much pressure on an already emotionally voilatile situation seems like lighting a match next to a gas station. My own experiences taught me that theres really no reason to be in a romantic relationship right now, especially considering how good I'm doing on my own, without that drama. Whether that can be said about you or not, I don't know. I do know that leaving the country for a bit made me realize how much our culture really did emphasize the whole "single is bad" feeling.
--George
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