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I honestly don't know how to deal with life anymore. Lately everything I thought was strong and true has crumbled and broken done in front of me. Strong friendships becoming nothing more than an occastional "Hows life?" people who I once had faith and had faith in me looking down on me and distancing themselves from the memories we once had. I wish it were just one person but I see in a couple of people. The more it changes for the worse two things happen: I realize how much I have had, and not realized; and I become more and more passive about life. I'm seriously starting a focus on a "what may come will come" attitude. People and ideas that I thought were concrete I'm realizing are paper thin, easily destroyed and lost. We can easily get stuck in our happy little bubble but I refuse to step back in. Whats your bubble? OH well I'm going to school then I'm going to graduate and become famous and make lots of money and...stop. Get out of the bubble your so focused on you're so focused on the future you're pissing away the present. Don't treat the present as some meaningless preamble to a greater future. Live every momment as if it's your last, great cliche. It's not just a recent death I heard about that brings up this idea of enjoying what life you have, it's that I'm really not wired the same way as some of you.
Keep your morrals, and ideals, and ambitions...

to yourself