This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time....

Recap, that last post was not me...I don't know who it was but I'm back to being me again. Hi, did you miss me? Were you wondering what was wrong with that guy? I was...even when I was at my happiest that week I was second guessing it the whole time and guess what? I was right, the whole fuckin time I was right. I hate that, do you know how much I wish I could be wrong. Everyone's like hey one day it's gonna happen and your gonna be so shocked and so happy, BULLSHIT. Sell it somewhere else, no ones life reads like a hallmark card so fuckin shovel it somewhere else. Oh that last line felt good, oh yea back to being me again. Ready to get drunk make an ass of myself and ruin some girls night, god it's great being me. Don't you wish you were me? I get it all the time, people tellin me how good I got it...their like damn Tim if only I could be you for like 10 minutes...I'd never be happier. I know, but honestly I guess I'm just gifted that way; we can't all have it as good as me, sorry I'm blessed your not, deal with it. One day it won't happen again, that false hope that I got last week, that feeling that THIS IS IT!! EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OK NOW!!!! that shit. Eventually I'll hit the point where I'm so cynical you'll have to smack me to convince me anything positeve is happening. *sigh*

oh ps.
I"ll eat your bullshit just don't expect me to smile.