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"The future is easy because it doesn't exist, the past is hard because it is forever." - Fred Durst
So I'm gonna be a senior next year and let me tell you nothing terrifies me more. I've seen it in some of my friends too, and I think it's perfectly natural for us to fear for our futures. I mean basically up until this point we've followed that nicely laid out plan our parents had for us, do good in high school graduate, go to a good college(does rowan count? lol) do well, after that ?????. Who fuckin knows, thats what scares me; I don't even know what I'm gonna do. It's this opening this great uncertainty that no matter what you've accomplished up until this point you could easily fuck up; there's always a chance to end up on the bottom in life, nothing is guaranteed.
So what do we do when we graduate, I guess we find some job quickly something to pay the bills unless you we're smart and ahead of the game, unless you have some "future" already planned. I don't, I take life one step at a time; maybe that was stupid but I made my decisions I have to stick to them. Do you ever feel like your whole life was spoon fed to you? ANd all of a sudden a life of floating in a bubble will be ended and you will be expected to swim on your own...this is my worst fear.
But I just think one step at a time, what do I want out of life; I don't need to be rich I just need to get by. I'd like an apartment, a big screen tv, a dog, a decent car, and close friends, a job that I enjoy so I am not miserable on days I work; anything other than those things I consider bonuses. Growing up it goes from fireman to astronaut to a rock star with 20 cars and a mansion...I'm happy enough now just grabing my own little piece to myself; and staying there.
how bout you want plans ya got for the future?
So I'm gonna be a senior next year and let me tell you nothing terrifies me more. I've seen it in some of my friends too, and I think it's perfectly natural for us to fear for our futures. I mean basically up until this point we've followed that nicely laid out plan our parents had for us, do good in high school graduate, go to a good college(does rowan count? lol) do well, after that ?????. Who fuckin knows, thats what scares me; I don't even know what I'm gonna do. It's this opening this great uncertainty that no matter what you've accomplished up until this point you could easily fuck up; there's always a chance to end up on the bottom in life, nothing is guaranteed.
So what do we do when we graduate, I guess we find some job quickly something to pay the bills unless you we're smart and ahead of the game, unless you have some "future" already planned. I don't, I take life one step at a time; maybe that was stupid but I made my decisions I have to stick to them. Do you ever feel like your whole life was spoon fed to you? ANd all of a sudden a life of floating in a bubble will be ended and you will be expected to swim on your own...this is my worst fear.
But I just think one step at a time, what do I want out of life; I don't need to be rich I just need to get by. I'd like an apartment, a big screen tv, a dog, a decent car, and close friends, a job that I enjoy so I am not miserable on days I work; anything other than those things I consider bonuses. Growing up it goes from fireman to astronaut to a rock star with 20 cars and a mansion...I'm happy enough now just grabing my own little piece to myself; and staying there.
how bout you want plans ya got for the future?
posted by -tim- at 3:32 AM
4 Comments:
well see i kinda like not knowing wat is goin to to happen to me in the near future but im goin to try to do what ive wanted to do since i was a little kid and if i fail im either goin to be a bum or i can always go back to school (middlesex!!!!!) im not really afraid of being a bum and if i do fail then i wont be living a life of regret. so do watever u want to do there is no life plan, experiance anything u want to experiance, reach for the stars.
I think not looking foward and worrying about the past is not a cool thing. See, if you worry about the past then every present situation becomes the past. Not that most people would care, but the Bible says that you should really just worry about the plan your life has. Some would argue that they have no control over their lives if there destined to one calling. But if you're a don't worry about the future type person, then you are really not taking control over your life anyway...right? I say forget the past. What's done is done.
Plus, especially being a Red Sox fan, I'm a big believer in "there's always next year..." type statements.
I believe that Bible advice too. There is something we're all destined for. If you don't look foward, you might get off patha nd never reach it. It's like driving a car, if you will (haha..."if you will"...what a nerd I am...). You would never look in the rear-view mirror or out the back window of a car to drive foward, would you?
-- Fesh
very well put fesh, I wish I couldn't think about the past and just move on, but I think ever experience is important good or bad you have to find a way to learn from your past. What I do believe is unhealthy is dwelling on the past; you can't let one thing that happened destroy your future you have to take something positieve from it and try to move on. I can't help fear for the future though; I have a hard time being positieve because I feel so out of control about the future. I can either hope it all falls into place or try to take action and force change(which has never really been my strong suit) I don't have a rock the boat mentality, maybe I have to change.
but either way thanks for posting everyone...
I don't know what is in my future. But I know it will involve sexing, eating, and pooping. If any of these 3 are missing...count me out.
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